It was beautiful with you once
(or l loved you like I should have loved myself)
We sat in our darkness
And reached for one another
And I fell into you like a dream.
It was beautiful with you once,
To dance with your demons
To hold them close
To let them become me.
And I would have stayed with you in darkness,
If you had held onto my hand,
If you had asked me to stay with you,
If only for a little while longer.
Though in the space that gathered between us
like withering oak,
I was never truly at home in your arms
I was never truly me.
But
It was beautiful with you once.
I was swayed by your darkness
I was seduced by pain
And I thought it made me whole
But my light kept calling me
(And while you shied away from yours
I embraced mine)
so, you stayed dancing with your demons,
but I could reach for your hand no longer….
It was beautiful with you once.